November 16, 2014

Ever since McKinlee was about ten months old we have talked about how many kids we would want to have, the timing between all of them, etc. We decided on two. Two babies, two children. Three is company and someone is usually always left out. Four is too many, so two it is. We have had our boy name picked out since McKinlee was born and I have a giant list of girl names ready to be decided on. We love the name Carter, and in a world where all names are pretty much unisex, we might use it for a boy or a girl.

With that said, we started trying for #babybolingertwo in April of 2014, McKinlee turned two in May and we always thought our babies would be no more than two years apart, so we were already behind. I'll be honest, when we weren't pregnant the first month, I was discouraged. Afterall, it happened all of a sudden the first time around, so why didn't it happen right away when we were trying on purpose. So here we are, seven months in and still no baby.

I know some people may be reading this and thinking "why would you try for another baby out of wedlock?" or "what are they thinking?" I don't have to explain myself nor do I want to. I think God knows what is in our hearts and that he knows we're in a committed partnership for life and that this is something we want. We want McKinlee to grow up with a sibling, someone to team up against mom and dad with, someone to argue with and someone to share family traditions with, and in the end, someone to lean on when it seems like her world is coming crashing down. I want that for both of our children.

December 3, 2014

I'm late. Four days late and too nervous to take a test. What if it's negative? More disappointment and I don't know that Justin can handle another month of "mopey Baylee". I sometimes wonder if people will read this and feel  like I'm being selfish. "She already has one perfect, healthy baby, why is she being so whiny about not having another when some people can't have any!" Is it selfish? Can you have infertility after having a child? Is that me being a dramatic hypochondriac? Probably.

December 4, 2014

Negative.

January 3, 2015

I am currently in North Carolina staying with my family while also visiting friends. I was just feeling super sore and full in my breasts and I text Justin "I think I'm pregnant." Of course, I say this every month, so the sweet man he is, says "oh I hope so!" but than later says "but if not, that's ok!" So I promised him I would wait until I get home January 5 to take a test! I've been trying not to think much about it, but I am anxious to know! Due date would be September 10, 2015

January 5, 2014

I'm on the flight home and just thinking about how sore I am, and that I hope it's because there is a baby the size of a poppyseed growing inside of me. McKinlee has been excellent on both flights, I thought to myself "Psh I can handle two, easy peasy." By myself, heck no. I'm not alone though, I have the most precious man, waiting at the airport eager to pick us up and he's my partner, my rock and he's the best daddy in the world, and I can't imagine doing life with anyone else. Tonight is the night we find out and I am so excited, but not so excited that I'll be super disappointed because, after 9 days, I'm ready to see my man! Nothing could ruin tonight.

January 5, 2015 // 11:16 PM

Positive!

Holy cow! It happened! Finally. 

January 6, 2015 // 5:17 AM

Just to be sure. Positive! AHH!
We're on our way to being a family of four!

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